Salam u Alaikum,

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
Maya Angelou


simply amazing.

As Salam u Alaikum

I really don't have the time to reflect on this just yet, but I didn't want to forget, so I might as wel post the lyrics now. Over break, I've been amazed by the lyrics from Aman, Tupac, and Mos Def. I experienced another of my epiphanies. Good God, I don't know what to think anymore. It's so confusing and I'm not sure if I could follow my gut instict because there's a fat chance that its wrong. Someone recommended me to listen to this song, On my Own, a collaboration including Mos Def and Les Nubians.

[Will.I.Am]
We gonna build this bridge on our own
Original creation and let it be known
No duplication that I can condone
Constant elevation till I'm fully blown
I'm on my own now in my own world feeling free
Can't change the way I am with your insanity
I'ma stay who I be can't nobody change me
Got my soul to protect and support my family

[Les Nubians]
(verse in french)
All on my own(3X)

[Alp De Ap]
I'm all by myself no one can help me guy
Plus I'm the only one that know what it's about
I gotta stay calm to figure it out
It's gonna relax, stop, shout
You know you gotta breath in to breath out
I stay cool and collect of ??? cool out
I can't end on my own or go out that way
So why I gotta listen to what people got to say
I stay I stay

[Les Nubians]
All on my own (3X)
All on my

[Mos Def]
Yo I know self own self
To control self
Avoid or destroy
Whatever did to po' self
When brother's right muslim right and compose self
Stay on the grind to protect feet and clothe self
Stay true to self do for self do improve the self
To elevate the next man we need-could use some help
For long time I got a plan to see the root to self
So when the strong wind come it don't remove the self
We born alone and die alone but we don't strive alone
B E P 'N M O S blaze the trail and we ride it

~*~*~*~*~*~
Encouraging.

Sunday, January 02, 2005
a spiritual beginning (once again)
Current mood: accomplished

We have finally come to a finale on this winter break. It was pleasant for me. Not many worries at all, and more than enough time to read, watch tv, over eat, and sleep. But of course as the sun rises to a Monday, it'll be a nice slap in the face and out in the real world do we venture. School, clubs, sat's., yessss, I just can't wait.

I've actually been able to do a lot this weekend, like curb a couple desires that i've had before which hindered me from becoming the person I strive to be. So I'm keenly interested in my religion. I want to in the best of my iman (faith) in God, and in myself. I want to follow the traditional ways of the last Prophet, the sunnah. And you can call me old school or a fundamentelist, but I am neither.
I call my self a go-getter, a striver for the spiritual blessing. And the best way to connect your inner self with divinity is through more prayer, and less diversion. I had the chance of contemplating over everything that didnt' bother me, but rather helped me in becoming a better person. It was like a week of Ramadan, except I overate and I did a much better job with self control this week than I did last Ramadan.

It's like my first phase in the purification of thy heart and soul. School's a burden, but a must. So it will be the chief struggle in keeping my spiritual grounds intact :-).

Let the jihad begin.






(and for goodness sake, I mean the inner struggle, not a bloody war on you damn people)

much love and peace to you all.

Currently reading:
In the Shade of the Qur'an (Vol. 30)
By Professor Muhammad Qutb
Release date: By 1992