Every other hour, i force myself to recall these violent outbursts of anger and frustration at the world, at the people, but mostly at myself. Then the tears start pouring, and it stings because I am shamed by my lack of self-control.

“ The strong is not the one who over comes the people by his strength”
"But the strong is the one who controls him while in anger." Bukhari

Ya'Allah give us the strength to control.